Wtf

I am 16 yrs old now I should be able to have dudes over my house but with the total lack of trust in my home will I ever have fun with my friends. Its better for me to do stuff while you know it then to sneak around and do it. My reason for wanting my dude friends over is completly innocent and has nothing to do with sex. Those dudes I want over are friends I have known for years. If I could you'd hear me saying things like 'do these shoes look cute or dose this shirt." I do not have any interest in having sexual relations with anyone especially my friends. My friends can chill with other dudes but I can't. Parents that look to hard at things will never see the real picture they will only be looking for an excuse not to. I'm not mad or anything but I'm just wondering why doesn't my mom trust me like my friends mom trusts her if you walk into her living room you'll see like two of her sissy's and a bro (not a blood bro)  just a dude that her mom has no problem with. I UNDERSTAND THE CAUTION it's a dude, males want sex, usually with a female, and my mom is only trying to protect me and our reputation, but all i want is for a little bit of trust don't think I'm trying to do all of everything but all it is, is simple socializing,since I can't leave the house. I love you mom, and I know you love me, but don't think I'm popping the pussy all around everywhere I'm being a lady.

Stuck between two walls

If you were stuck between two walls what would you do?
Its not a hall way or a room, just two walls.
If you were stuck between two walls that both seemed so intriguing what would you do?
They both were so much the same but so different.
If you were stuck between two walls what would you do?
If the walls had extrodinary things behind them what would you do?
You can't go behind one or the other will fall and crush the extrodinary things behind it, while also crushing half of your body and mind, bit not choosing one will leave you wondering what if, and then both the walls will fall and crush both halves of you.
If you were between two walls what would you do?
The walls both beautiful,clean, and smooth flawlessness in a visual.but both with uniqueness that will make both distinct...what would anybody do, I don't know

The imagination of my reality

I thought we were real and true
Nothing between us, just me and you
You made me feel special you were my king
When you were around you made my heart sing
True love, I guess, is what I felt
Bliss I felt so I removed my belt
You were the only one I felt vulnerable to
No dout in my mind for sure it's true
Your firm grip on my body
You told me to scream and call you daddy
All that passion and pleasure
I kept thinking go faster and faster
Between my legs, my pleads,and,begs
The sex was so good no lie, I was in over my head
My very first time and it lasted 3 hours
That night he held me it felt like the world was ours
He said our love should stay quite I didn't think nothing of it
Until I saw on facebook a foreseen epidemic
Another female, a couple at that
I been stabbed through the heart coming from the back
My world is over I'm still in grief
He stole my heart that he's to slick of a theif
Eyes full of tears, and heart bleeding
He still had the nerve to text me " what you doing"
As mad as I was ,and as quick as my tongue naturaly is
I told him "nothing " because I didn't want to believe this
I wanted him so much I blinded myself, I couldn't face reality
Well I tried not to until it finally hit me
It hit hard as a mofo I couldn't take it
so I called another dude to see if to take my mind off it
He did, in my room, on my bed, then on my floor
He comes over so much I don't even got to open the door
Although there's no strings attached he's still one of my best friends
And even though he flirts with other females we still fuck in the end
This story is as current and this is pretty much it
I know what you are saying "you went through alot of bullshit"

True athletes

My brothers

Mom and mistakes

I know as a teen-ager one thing I, and many other humans do is make mistakes. I believe I "ain't got no mind " which is why I make so many mistakes but my mother thinks I make mistakes just to make her life miserable. She thinks my whole perpose in life is to make sure her life is a living heck whole which is just not true.

Intention

There are a lot of times when a person (me) intends on doing something positive but it turns negititve and back fires. Today me my sister and my mom were talking about how girls were saying tori  can't dance because she wasn't trying to she was just having fun I was saying that's good none of them wanted to go out their until you did so they can't talk ...I wouldn't have even go out there then after some moments I go in the living room were she was at and she was all serious saying not to say I wouldn't have gone out there I shook it off but eat got me was she said it in mimicing voice and it hurt my feelings because my intentions were to help her feel better about herself.

What i want to understand is

Why do adults get so difficult and why some become so immature and stuck up. That is really not cute us as students we look up to you and you want to act childish and mean too. Us as teenagers don't take that lightly we really take it to quite an offence when a adult treats us wrongly by not showing understanding to our situations because not everybody has the same thing as you do.teenagers have no money no gas not even a car. And if you are in my predicament you have no computer no money Mom is busy with either job or siblings and you have no other ways of getting to and from places then that is how the  world is today and if an adult is older then you and wiser "so called "then they need to see that we are only limited in our resources back then when you we're my age you could drive and earn money some how but now we can't.... YOU AREN'T OLD...  so y'all need to GET WITH THE TIMES and stop being so stuck up not even jobs do that stuff