Wtf

I am 16 yrs old now I should be able to have dudes over my house but with the total lack of trust in my home will I ever have fun with my friends. Its better for me to do stuff while you know it then to sneak around and do it. My reason for wanting my dude friends over is completly innocent and has nothing to do with sex. Those dudes I want over are friends I have known for years. If I could you'd hear me saying things like 'do these shoes look cute or dose this shirt." I do not have any interest in having sexual relations with anyone especially my friends. My friends can chill with other dudes but I can't. Parents that look to hard at things will never see the real picture they will only be looking for an excuse not to. I'm not mad or anything but I'm just wondering why doesn't my mom trust me like my friends mom trusts her if you walk into her living room you'll see like two of her sissy's and a bro (not a blood bro)  just a dude that her mom has no problem with. I UNDERSTAND THE CAUTION it's a dude, males want sex, usually with a female, and my mom is only trying to protect me and our reputation, but all i want is for a little bit of trust don't think I'm trying to do all of everything but all it is, is simple socializing,since I can't leave the house. I love you mom, and I know you love me, but don't think I'm popping the pussy all around everywhere I'm being a lady.

Stuck between two walls

If you were stuck between two walls what would you do?
Its not a hall way or a room, just two walls.
If you were stuck between two walls that both seemed so intriguing what would you do?
They both were so much the same but so different.
If you were stuck between two walls what would you do?
If the walls had extrodinary things behind them what would you do?
You can't go behind one or the other will fall and crush the extrodinary things behind it, while also crushing half of your body and mind, bit not choosing one will leave you wondering what if, and then both the walls will fall and crush both halves of you.
If you were between two walls what would you do?
The walls both beautiful,clean, and smooth flawlessness in a visual.but both with uniqueness that will make both distinct...what would anybody do, I don't know

The imagination of my reality

I thought we were real and true
Nothing between us, just me and you
You made me feel special you were my king
When you were around you made my heart sing
True love, I guess, is what I felt
Bliss I felt so I removed my belt
You were the only one I felt vulnerable to
No dout in my mind for sure it's true
Your firm grip on my body
You told me to scream and call you daddy
All that passion and pleasure
I kept thinking go faster and faster
Between my legs, my pleads,and,begs
The sex was so good no lie, I was in over my head
My very first time and it lasted 3 hours
That night he held me it felt like the world was ours
He said our love should stay quite I didn't think nothing of it
Until I saw on facebook a foreseen epidemic
Another female, a couple at that
I been stabbed through the heart coming from the back
My world is over I'm still in grief
He stole my heart that he's to slick of a theif
Eyes full of tears, and heart bleeding
He still had the nerve to text me " what you doing"
As mad as I was ,and as quick as my tongue naturaly is
I told him "nothing " because I didn't want to believe this
I wanted him so much I blinded myself, I couldn't face reality
Well I tried not to until it finally hit me
It hit hard as a mofo I couldn't take it
so I called another dude to see if to take my mind off it
He did, in my room, on my bed, then on my floor
He comes over so much I don't even got to open the door
Although there's no strings attached he's still one of my best friends
And even though he flirts with other females we still fuck in the end
This story is as current and this is pretty much it
I know what you are saying "you went through alot of bullshit"

True athletes

My brothers

Mom and mistakes

I know as a teen-ager one thing I, and many other humans do is make mistakes. I believe I "ain't got no mind " which is why I make so many mistakes but my mother thinks I make mistakes just to make her life miserable. She thinks my whole perpose in life is to make sure her life is a living heck whole which is just not true.

Intention

There are a lot of times when a person (me) intends on doing something positive but it turns negititve and back fires. Today me my sister and my mom were talking about how girls were saying tori  can't dance because she wasn't trying to she was just having fun I was saying that's good none of them wanted to go out their until you did so they can't talk ...I wouldn't have even go out there then after some moments I go in the living room were she was at and she was all serious saying not to say I wouldn't have gone out there I shook it off but eat got me was she said it in mimicing voice and it hurt my feelings because my intentions were to help her feel better about herself.

What i want to understand is

Why do adults get so difficult and why some become so immature and stuck up. That is really not cute us as students we look up to you and you want to act childish and mean too. Us as teenagers don't take that lightly we really take it to quite an offence when a adult treats us wrongly by not showing understanding to our situations because not everybody has the same thing as you do.teenagers have no money no gas not even a car. And if you are in my predicament you have no computer no money Mom is busy with either job or siblings and you have no other ways of getting to and from places then that is how the  world is today and if an adult is older then you and wiser "so called "then they need to see that we are only limited in our resources back then when you we're my age you could drive and earn money some how but now we can't.... YOU AREN'T OLD...  so y'all need to GET WITH THE TIMES and stop being so stuck up not even jobs do that stuff

Meeee

Am I ugly or pretty

I like his version

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its good to love your sister

My sister isn't just a sister she's a friend. She may be a baby but I was raised loving my family and staying close to my sister. I hug my sister in public and give her little pecks on the cheek to let her and everyone else that I love her.when I get older I want her to be with me and tell me about her problems as a young lady and I can teach her how to do her hair or how to dress for her first prom. And if and when she has her first heart break I want her to come to me and my arms will be open to her. Don't get me wrong we do most definitely fight it can even be some physical altercations. But at the end of the day we're sisters and that's just how it is.

my weight lose journey

ok tomorrow im starting a diet i want to loose some not to be skinny but thick. that pretty kind of thick were you can were anything shorts pants cropped tops and all

cheating

wow...cheating wat is there to say cheating is not good. even if you think your significant other is. my motto is two wrongs don't make A right. me personally i fight it out i'd make his life a living hell if that nigga ever hurt me like that. cheating isn't looking over on a friend desk for answers...that's team work. cheating is taking a persons trust and using it to take advantage of another persons trust without them knowing. usually when a person first meets someone they have there gard up even if you keep talking to them they'll have it up for weeks, months, and years. But ones that gard is down yu have the real person there and they think they have the real person too but they have a person who uses there real spirit as a mound to stand on then tell there friends BUT dating around is one TOTALLY different situation that when the gurd is still up but choosing what types of people you would pull it down for. but dating while in a relationship is CHEATING...kissing sumone else is CHEATING...grinding on someone else is CHEATING...calling another girl (that's not family) bae babe baby or for girls calling another dude bae babe baby big daddy love bunny ...lol...or watevr else is CHEATING...and most definitly having sex with someone not your significant other is of course CHEATING!!!!!!
cheating is not cute  and dudes it don't make you a player it makes you luck mutha(shut yo mouth!!!)

Appearance

Some people people to much thought into how they look. Like its ok to look good but if you just start getting scared to take pics because of your acne or dark marks, then you need to stop worrying about it everyone has it so you should not let that be a hold back

A birthday is an annual celebration of the day you were born. The people that love and appreciate you being in their lives. Some birthdays start off great gets worse then better but no matter how you celebrate it, its a blessing to live every year you do :)

Family

If i had the choice of choosing life and family I'd  choose family. I love my family if i was poor they'd give me some money if i was hurt they'd nurse me to health if i was broken they'd glue staple tape or even weld me back together that's how much they love me and I'd die for them we all have flaws mostly the same but we all love our flaws and differences and the thing that make my family most distinct is that we have some kind of similarity that gives us something to talk about they don't have to be blood to be family they just have to truly love you in some type of way. Family isn't family just for blood or cus y'all look the same talk the same of even like the same things... Anybody can do that but only your real family has love for you... REAL LOVE...100%TRUE LOVE...the LOVE that makes you CRY for them, with them, to them, and by them.<3 muahs

Beauty

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder...beauty is only skin deep...beauty and the beast a lot of beauty out there in the world. And every part of the world has its own type of beauty. I am said to be ugly and said to be cute also just ok, but i just really want to be 100% me and others should too. Although there ostensibly different types of beauty find yours...and important not trying to say don't try and be descent... If you have some ok clothes put them on or if you don't put those on and pretend you do and most of my readers are highschoolers so just try and if you have friends or cousins borrow some clothes from them,and if you're like me and have only one pair of pants you wear to everything(I ain't shame) then put different stuff on with it try to hide it :) cuz of those wanna be comedians think cus they get money they so cool(but I`ll blog about that later)...just try I KNOW we're teens what are we to do but aye gotta try... And I KNOW that people know they are pretty but if you have acne like a normal teen then don't worry about it,its just a way of life its better then the things animals go through if we didn't  have acne at puberty then our heads would fall  of and grow back slowly would you rather have acne or your head smaller then your body for your sweet 16 huh...smh i am truly a mess....HEED MY POSTS  Y'ALL...recommend me and comment or email me some blog ideas anything accepted love ya...love and stay beautiful

Doctor appointment

Today i went to a hospital with me little sister and mom. Tori is my sis name she had to get her gallbladder check in an ultrasound poor baby she didn't eat anything till around 9am, but Anyways i  can't stress this enough if your going to a hospital Bring a JACKET its freezing its warmer outside,and its WINTER... Same at the eye doctor i was surely shivering in my old navy sweat shirt. But it was still good to get out of school, but of course i was bored without friends to text  and then i didn't get any cute glasses ugh... I wish my eyes weren't so perfect  my little bro wanted some bad he started crying he said i wish my eyes were broken like toria's i kinda laughed because were in ruston  were there is alot of blind people walking and i could picture the blind people across the street saying the hell you don't...but seriously my sister seemed stupid blind imean she said a M is a Q and she ain't diclexic (i know i spelt that wrong...its cool) but her lil left handed tale gets to have glasses truly hating love ya sis.:)

Gossip

Ok well during last period me and some classmates  were talking about some really juicy gossip and roomer, and when i say i herd some stuff i herd it all. People having sex with other people and fights that happened and are going to happen my mouth and ears were wide open, but the thing I didn't like was how people wouldn't give me any names of any kind just some initials I DON'T KNOW WHO Q IS!! Like dang man then the two other dudes with us are trying as hard as me to figure out who these people are. JUST SAY IT you gave the business out already mite as well....for people that don't agree we all gossips my family gossip my church gossips the word gospel means gossip so I'm doing the Christian thing and tying to figure out dis whole situation....ROFL like those people say... LET ME FIND OUT!!! ;)

First day of first semester

OMG!!! Already back and I'm ready to go home. I already knew it would get a little bit worse, but not being able to wear hoodies or jacketa from other schools or collages really not fair people get cold,IT WINTER like duh we haven't had any hoodies sold sense spirit week the begining of the school year surley he dosen't think people will do it. I think no school should have uniforms unless the student is being punished. YUP... I see it as a xomplete punishment for keeping people from expressing thereselves through appropriate dressing in a cute unique swagg. We should just mob the school down with that. Better yet make teachers wear uniforms too! Yup give em a taste:D well i can't do nothing but cry about it any way oneday 90's baby will overcome the only generation that makes sense;D(not really)

First post

This is not a place for adults unless they want to know how to get to love their teen. Some are complicated some aren't but I'm here to clear stereotypes and give super sweet advise and shotouts if you want it:)